I am so sorry you are experiencing the hurt that you are.
I know this may sound like fluff...but, try not to view it that way. Like what you told Brent that there was a reason he didn't get to see that counselor today and it will all work out the way it was meant to be.
If you truly are suffering from depression, and the doctor suggests medication, it might not hurt to take it. I finally broke down and allowed myself to take what the doctor
had suggested. It works if I don't drink. Its not an over the top type of medication, but, does help with the blues, and the worrying.
I like your proactive thinking about contacting housing and your teacher.
There isn't anyone in any of those meetings that can be a sponsor to you...even temporarily?