I think it is because we have been talking more and he has told me that when he comes back to Ca his girlfriend is not comming with him..
Well that worked. He's gotcha hooked.
It helps me (when I"ve been talking to AH which is the first mistake) to play those fantasies all the way through. Realistically.
Because when I play that tape all the way through I realize:
I don't want to be with a man who had "a girlfriend," for five months of our marriage. Really. I look at that fact outside the context of denial and wanting to believe that everything will miraculously be ok. I pretend my sister were telling me this.
He has disrespected me more than any single human on the face of the earth. The list is long, Sister, and my wanting to do anything with him other than get away now and fast is not healthy.
The best thing I can do is refocus my efforts only myself, positively, and embrace my beautiful, imperfect life.
It's a new day.