I second Horselover that sleep will come eventually. I used alcohol as a remedy for insomnia, no doubt about it. And I do remember having a very tough time initially because I just lay there in bed night after night. But, obviously, that ended at some point. I cannot say when or how, just that it ended and I began to sleep "normally". I mean, it's still tough to fall asleep some nights, just the way my brain is wired, I guess. But I can live with it. You can, too.