i havent talked much at meetings. Im a little afraid of sounding stupid or ignorent.
i know i should stop drinking but i love the feelin it gives me. no matter how bad things get, drinking a fast pint of vodka always makes me feel good for a while. people at aa say if I work the steps i'll change and not want to drink. i don't get what the heck they mean. i haven't drank today so i guess ive had a good day but im misereble!!!