I hope that you can find an HP that will enable you to overcome your personal prejudices and misconceptions about the various avenues of help available to you in this great, wide world of recovery that we, the afflicted, have been so blessed to discover. Please review your priorities concerning jobs, social stature (stigma), housing and anything that is not directly concerned with saving your life. Without sobriety and a peaceful place to be and a safe harbor from the world, at least mentally, we cannot have all of the things that appear, at first glance, to be so necessary. God bless you. John from Oklahoma