Hi some1saveme,
Welcome to SR. Glad to see you posting and reaching out for help. Oxys, booze, food, sex, gambling, they're all the same to me, addiction, pure and simple. We need help, which is not easy to ask for, in fact it's the hardest thing for me. You can do this!!! Keep asking for help and keep trying. Maybe call Na, Narcotics Anonymous, and see if you can find some help near where you live. Stay close to SR, don't give up, and post your concerns so that others can respond to you personally.
Welcome!!