Oh B - We do care because we have all been there at some point. This is why SR is such a great place. We don't judge people. We do try to help.
I'm not sure what I would do if I was withdrawing from pills. I wish someone that had been through this would come on. My poison was alcohol - quite literally. I had to cold turkey it. I couldn't have weaned myself because I never would have been able to clean up, but that's my story.
Hang in there hon. It will get better. I am sending some prayers up for you. :ghug3