I called my daughter and she is coming to stay with me.
The feelings of shame are unbearable...but the worst feeling is the fear that I will take a pill.
I didn't throw them out because I'm afraid if the pain becomes too bad I'll have to cave and take one. I have exactly 63 left....I always know how many days worth I have before I need to worry about getting a new prescription.
My goal is to be able to flush them in the next day or two, depending on what I encounter with the detoxing process....
But then what if I have a mental 'break-down' and my mind wins the battle? I really don't know if I should flush them or not now?
Thanks to all who took the time to write - I had this fear inside of me saying that nobody would see my post or worse not care enough to write. I guess that says a lot about how insecure I am.