Bdiddy...
Isn't that an awful way to start the week off, hangover..ugh., I don't miss it. But, I do know EXACTLY what you are saying about the withdrawals kicking in, and the cycle starting all over again.
AA has been the absolute best thing I have ever done in my recovery. It keeps my spiritual side engaged and present, which, has lifted even the pre-occupation in my mind about drinking. When I had quit before, I had the alcohol out of my body, but, it really wasn't out of my head. I would entertain thoughts of moderately drinking...or such, and as you know, eventually, my resolve was destroyed. I hopped on the insane train once more.
Good Luck with whatever you decide to keep sober., and know that all of us are here.