Been there...trying to get through my first 24 hours and have failed for the last four days, so you have something on me....I do know where you are coming from though...just a friendly face or a nod or a hug or anything from anyone which might let you know you are not in this battle alone and that someone actually gives a crap about what you are going through. Well, I do and you inspired me tonight with your words....I have tried (obviously not hard enuf) to go to a meeting the last week since I began making this decision and haven't made it there yet, so I admire your courage and determination. Maybe tomorrow I can be as brave as you and actually go to my first meeting without thinking I will die from a panic attack and get my first 24 hours. Just wanted to let you know you are not alone......