Thank you for your share.
I am ashamed also. The 5th step states: Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs. I was an alchoholic, self centered, ***** monger. My wife and children suffered the associated concequences of my actions. I am completely ashamed of my actions. It is a miracle that they still speak to me. I will rot in hell. I will spend the rest of my life making amends to them.
The first law of addiction states that if you pick up, you will end up where you left off. Withdrawal symptoms only last for 3 minutes, and decrease in frequency as time progresses. It takes only 3 days to metabolize any drug out of you system. I can not pick up. I can not handle being a practicing alchoholic. I will go through life with optimism, hope and courage. I will not pick up one day at a time. I hope that all is well with you. Best regards. Dan.