Originally Posted by
myxomatosis 
...but thats not how it works right? its always going to be a battle.
Not at all. I haven't felt that battle for a long time. It ended when I surrendered and, instead of fighting, was shown a path to being recovered.
From 10th Step promises,
Originally Posted by AA Big Book, 1st Ed.
And we have ceased fighting anything or anyone, even alcohol. For by this time sanity will have returned. We will seldom be interested in liquor. If tempted, we recoil from it as from a hot flame. We react sanely and normally, and we will find that this has happened automatically. We will see that our new attitude toward liquor has been given us without any thought or effort on our part. It just comes! That is the miracle of it. We are not fighting it, neither are we avoiding temptation. We feel as though we had been placed in a position of neutrality safe and protected. We have not even sworn off. Instead, the problem has been removed. It does not exist for us. We are neither cocky nor are we afraid. That is how we react so long as we keep in fit spiritual condition.