Hey anon, I'm going to PM you a link. Try giving them a call, ask questions, tell them what you've told us. I really feel for you. At the same time you seem so very intelligent. Don't let this get the best of you. You are so, so, so young and have your whole life ahead of you that can be the best you can make of it.
Glad you found us. Hope to keep seeing you around here. :ghug3