It is hard - words cannot explain how hard....
*years* after a drink last made me feel 'better', it still screamed that lie into my ear...it was the hardest thing I ever did to ignore that and to do things differently - but it was also the best.
It's not about strength or willpower IMO - it's about acceptance - drinking does me harm.
It will kill me, and destroy my life and my spirit before it does.
Once you accept that - really accept that... the lies tend to lose their power.
It's gonna be tough - but you're not alone
Tell your husband, try a meeting....no more shots...
and keep posting
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