Welcome firemama...it is NOT easy. I found the detox the hardest part on the beginning of my journey to recovery. I found that going thru a detox in a professional setting to be the easiest way out of the hell whole. Of course it took me 4 detoxes and 3 treatment centers to finally figure it out...like I said, it's not easy. If you're not able to check yourself into a place to help you detox, I suggest you speak with your doctor openly and honestly, he may be able to give you something to help.
Keep in mind that it IS possible. I'm really close now to 6 years clean...this is a miracle to me and I know I never could have done it on my own, and trust me, I tried so many times. Everytime you say "I'll do it tomorrow", then there will be another tomorrow that follows it.
I'm so glad you found this site, and if you do a lot of reading and posting, you will find people with stories not to far from your own.
Good luck hun, and keep coming back.
