Mama, You reached out for help and you got some. That's what this is all about. Drunks helping other drinks. Don't ever apologize for asking for help. I'll come in all shapes and forms, but you'll get the help you need. Start taking this this one day at a time, or even one hour at a time. Don't plan into the future, worry about now. And how about telling us that you didn't drink yesterday rather that you're not going to drink today? And even better, how about telling us about the AA meeting you went to?