My horse is getting better :)
So during my process of "trying to pull myself up" I found my horse had a huge painful lump on his breast. Took him to the vet and it was the dreaded Pigeon Fever which I had never heard of.....the vet lanced it (huge contagious abcess) put him on anti biotics. Then I had to quartine him from the other horses and wash and flush his wound for as long as it takes to heal.
It wasn't easy as I was drinking off and on at that time and going through withdrawls when I wasn't so we both felt s****y.
It's been a little over two weeks and he is spunky and feeling much better. His wound is healing and he has adjusted to be seperated from his buddies.
I have been sober for 6 days and though it is raining here the clouds are clearing from my head.
I am grateful...........