Hi Marion
Isn't this a bitch sometimes... Feelings come out of left field and we are often not ready and are surprised by them.
You feel numb, empty and lonely. Yea I got, still get, that sometimes. Especially that last one.... Lonely... It is a singularly difficult path when we have partners who still drink.
He probably should not keep a container of alcohol in the van... mostly because it is illegal, but I can think of a couple of reasons besides that, and they are not about you, if you get what I mean.
It was a beautiful day yesterday, uh?... bet you didn't need that little surprise. It'll get better....
Mark