That's terrible! I'm so sorry your first experience with AA was like that.
Obviously meetings geared towards a specific group tend to be smaller than general meetings, but someone should've stepped up and ran that meeting. I chaired a meeting on ~ day 20 because the two other people there needed sheets signed. I did a horrific job, but at least it got done!
Hopefully after getting some "real" meetings under your belt you can look back on that one and laugh. I can understand your frustration and disappointment but hang in there. Try a general meeting, no need to do anything other than sit there and listen if that would make you more comfortable. If anyone asks you to speak, just say "pass" and nothing more.
Just remember no one gets any real, official "AA" training on holding meetings and such. Everyone there is just another regular person with emotions and feelings and it could've just been a bad day for everyone involved. As in life, not everything works perfectly 100% of the time.
Please give it another shot!!
