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"If, when you honestly want to, you find you cannot quit entirely, or if when drinking, you have little control over the amount you take, you are probably alcoholic" AA, Page 44
For me, it was also important to pay attention to the progression of my drinking. The consumtion gradually increased, and the time between drinks or binges decreased steadily. That was a big indicator that I had an illness, because the disease is indeed progressive.
In the end, it didn't matter how much I was drinking; what mattered was my quality of life while I was in the throes. I was tired, useless, in self-pity, annoying, lonely, and ashamed. I wanted a better life, and that is what we get in recovery.
Recovery is a choice - no one gets to tell you whether or not you are ready for a better life. When someone told me that I didn't drink enough to be an alcoholic, I said "I am alcoholic enough for me."
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