Originally Posted by
robbie 
I fear that in a couple of days when i feel better the cycle will begin again....as it always does.....
I'm scarred i have to hit rock bottom before i will actually change.
Welcome to SR, first off.
It doesn't have to... and, yeah, I'm one to talk--I'm the prodigal daughter of relapse, I think. But what do you want to do? You gonna let the circumstances of your life dictate how you live? I don't know you yet... I know addiction though.
It's on you, on me, on every one of us, deep down. We can choose to go for it, or not to.
And while you're at it, what's rock bottom? I grew up on Skid Row. Never got near where the "Skid Row Bum" is... and never mean to.
Wish you the best of luck, and stay around some. I never thought I could stay sober, till I came here by accident (I was mad at my roommates), and I haven't been the best example of sobriety, but I've got far more days sober than I ever thought was possible before.
Take care,
-TB