It makes perfect sense to me jehnifer. I struggle with the same things. I have said I want out but now that he is sober (and only for one piddly week) I am back to feeling incredibly selfish and guilty for not trying to make it work, or just very afraid that I am making the wrong decision for everyone. Other times I am just angry - I do think that we have both been through enough to call it quits if we want to - no matter how perfect our husbands are from today forward.
:agh: To complicated.