I know the feeling of envy when I see other couples...how they work together...seem secure... laugh together... have each others' backs. I know the feeling of not expecting I could have that or deserve it...for whatever reason. Primarily due to self imposed thinking that I am not a good enough or strong or confident enough person for that. I have chosen partners and relationships on that basis rather than on the basis that I deserve something very special.
- I want to feel secure and protected - that someone is there to take care of me
- (even though I may not be entierly ready to let them)
- I want someone who will be genuinely interested in how I am doing
- I want someone who will see a need and do things
- and thoughtful gestures that say I was thinking about YOU not me
- I want to be loved unconditionally
- I want some one to share in my joys - to be supportive of the things that make me happy
Well thats a good start anyway. Its very good advice to not hang my happiness and sense of wellbeign ALL on my relationship - to be able to enjoy life independently.
THANK YOU ALL FOR THE RESPONSES - YOU HAVE REALLY HELPED ME
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