Hilltopper,
You are describing me too.
2 days, feel great, drink, get sick, feel bad, get better, eat well, read motivational AA material, exercise, drink plenty of water, get alot of things done around the house and at work, drink a bottle of wine.
I feel terrible today, because thats what happened again last night.
and I drove drunk which I never do.
I don't want to give up, cause i am a good person.
But I am definately losing this battle.