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Old 10-13-2009, 06:59 AM
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MsPINKAcres
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I have used this reading several times, especially early in my recovery.

I am a recovering "throwing and screamer"

I learned at an early age by watching the adults in my life about throwing things and yelling about everything!

This is NOT who I wanted to be.

I applied the slogans, prayer, journaling, working the steps, calling my sponsor - and most of all - when I found myself - yelling or throwing things - STOPPING in the middle of it and saying "This is not who I am anymore"
Making amends to the person I was yelling at AND making amends to MYSELF.

I then had to take a look at what was driving that anger - fear, control, lack of self-esteem, trying to keep others away?

In the end, making a peace with me and with the God of my understanding has helped me tremendously with the skill of communication and venting my anger/frustrations in a healthier manner.

I still have the occasionally desire to slam a door or fling a telephone across the room - but the tools of the program jump in and save me from myself and restore me to sanity.

I put my emotions thru the steps and that leads me to healing. I find out what is truly going on with ME and ask my God to help me to process it in a healthier way.

Wishing you Love, Joy and Peace,
HUGS,
Rita
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