Originally Posted by
herennow 
Someone suggested that I might be worried about what others are thinking of me - this is not the case in this situation. I worry how my clients will behave now in a clinical session (ex: how will it start/end etc...) as I'm sure we will both feel a bit bent about this.
I totally worry about what others think of me, as a result I keep my recovery a complete secret from everyone.
Only behind the anonminity of my username here at SR do I admit my drink problem.
It works for me just now, I've been sober these past 17 months and meetings/AA etc just aren't for me.
There are many ways to do this hereandnow, sure AA works great for some folks, doesn't mean everyone has to go though, it is possible to stay sober without.
If my understanding of your post is right and you've been sober these past 5 years it strikes me that many of us would be better asking you for advice instead of pushing something at you that you don't think is right for you.
Wish you all the best.