Prayers coming your way for clarity during this difficult time.
Belated :day2
I've been AA committed for many years....when I started
my formal Step work I consider I shifted from sobriety to recovery.
About drinking again....I suggest you read the final paragraph
on page 43 in our book Alcoholics Anonymous
For resentments /anger ...page 552.
Here is an on going thread you might want to read/join
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...part-19-a.html
Blessings to you and your husband