Mornings are really hard, I don't know why. The heartbreak hits all over again. I know that it's not a good thing to be involved with an alcoholic, but it's really challenging to see him as just an alcoholic, when he's a whole human being with all sorts of characteristics. I need to find more acceptance of this situation.
I'm pretty triggered right now because I think that he may have started seeing someone else. More rejection just makes me want him more, which is gross. I know I deserve better than this, but my heart has it's own reactions and they're overwhelming at the moment.
Looking forward to better days. Hope I'm not stuck here for too long.