The weirdest thing just happened, just as I felt I was heading in the right direction:
As I left the Al Anon meeting, a guy friend of ours texted me, about a random thing. He's in AA and so I told him that I had just left my first meeting. He asked "why". I was puzzled about this as he knows my AB quite well. I texted back "because I was in love with an alcoholic and I need to deal with my head" He replied, "I'm not sure he is an alcoholic, but what do I know".
I'm just blown away. I mean, the guy is in recovery. Surely he can spot a problem. It makes me feel like I'm nuts.
But surely, drinking at least 5 beers and 4 or 5 glasses of wine every single night of your life, and that's not a party night, surely that's a problem!
I feel kind of betrayed all over again. I don't know why, but I thought that at least this guy was some kind of witness to what I've been dealing with. Well obviously not.
I know, I should just trust myself...