I'm tired of failing at this. It keeps coming back to the same thing. The truth is I don't want to quit. The problem is I can't get past that point therefore I'm still trying to "manage" my addiction. I need some kind of a kickstart, a line drawn in the sand so to speak or I'll continue in limbo forever until it kills me. I haven't yet explored going to my doctor, telling him I have a problem, and going the route of some kind of drug to help me through this. I'm open to it at this point. I don't really have withdrawls, ever! I can go 2 days, but I always find a way after I'm feeling great to start up again. Help me! I want it to be over so badly.
