Originally Posted by
outtolunch 
And the world did not end. It has changed the way I view the holidays, forever.
I did however, give the gift of serenity to myself that day
it was the begining of my own recovery.
Thank you for sharing this very life changing moment. I have for so long measured my life by how it is "supposed" to be...who I was supposed to be, who my AH was supposed to be, what the holidays were supposed to be. It has always been about making sure everyone else had what they needed - and yes, because if I was the golden girl, I could change everyone elses life. My goodness - I sure did think I was powerful. But you have reminded me that I have not given myself the greatest gift - the gift of serenity on a day to be thankful that I am alive, that I now live in safety, that the constant life of anger and lies and attempts at control are fading... You have reminded me of another step I need to take - to let go of what is supposed to be and live with what is.