I felt so alone and lonely when I was using drugs and alcohol.
I stopped and now I'm not alone anymore.
You may be obsessing because deep down you realize to continue like this will kill you (or someone else) It's highly dangerous. Addiction/alcoholism is all about obsession and compulsion.
You have a conscience and probably truly don't want to hurt those you love and those who love you, and you will if you keep it up. Most of all you are harming yourself.
It's a blessing you are fairly young and can see the insanity of it all. You can stop the insanity!
There is hope and there is help!
There is no shame in getting help.
Welcome to SR!
Sincerely,
Missy
Last edited by Missybuns; 10-07-2009 at 10:16 PM.