Me, too. My brother, age 45, got his very FIRST apartment a few months ago. I was so hopeful for and proud of him but he moved back in with my parents today, and is having a schizophrenic episode. Makes me want to cry. Sometimes I feel so guilty because I KNOW that it could have been ANY ONE of us kids that got the illness he got, but it wasn't; it was him. It feels so unfair.