Thanks for a very scary post & if ya don't mind, i'm gonna photo copy it & read it everyday. It certainly has stopped me from looking forward to getting my bourbon tomorrow, to, guess what, celebrate a small times abstinence!, how stupid!
Being ratty & a pain in the ass for a while surely is better than the up & down of drinking. At least being on a 'level' & knowing where i am is a good thing. Thanks.