Well, 2 months later and I have come a long way. Still have my moments but there are way more moments of peace and even times where that "pit" that used to live deep inside me 24/7 is not there at all. She is (slowly) fading into a memory with less emotion attached to it. What also is fading is all the needs that were not being meet by her or the relationship and that makes me in a way entertain the idea of "what the heck happened?". I find it helpful sometimes to go back and read what you all have said as well as my own responses. I also think there may be a few new people around that could maybe take some of the insight from this older thread and apply it to their situation.
I am a long way from being “there” but I am a lot closer than I was here. I think like was said the emotion will fade, but there will ALWAYS be a small part of my heart that will break for and love this women who came into my life.