Today was so hard for me today. I really really had to cry. I finally just broke down and cried when I got to work, I at least clean the bathrooms by myself. So i got some privacy. I haven't had a good cry in a while. And I really needed it. It was hurting me. I don't feel comfortable crying in front of my family, or at home, because I don't have any personal space or privacy. I'm sure it would be fine if I did just cry in front of them. But I'm afraid, afraid of what they might think or say. I worry too much about things like that and then I can't do what I need to do. Like cry when I need to.