I feel like I am a crazy person going through her things and checking everything. Who lives like this.
Pretty much everybody who involves themself with addicted and alcoholic people feel exactly like you do and lives like you do.
I have been anxious for the last week, can't eat and feel like I am going crazy. I can't do this anymore.
I totally relate to what you are going thru. Does your stomach hurt all the time? After two years of feeling like you do, I also had enough. I'm glad you have gotten to the point where you realize just how unhealthy it is for you to continue to be involved with this woman. It is VERY difficult for addix and alcoholix to be consistent about anything. I wouldn't expect any miraculous changes any time soon.