I strongly suggest you call your local womens shelter
or domestic violence center and find out what options
are in your area.
You are in an abusive relationship with a drug user.
And....nothing is going to change until you get away.
You need a plan.....and that is what the resources
I mentioned will help you do.
Even if you can't right now....it's wise to know how.
Prayers for your safety and peace coming your way.