Thanks again
I appreciate your replies. I realize I am likely pretty sick and don't want to destroy him by giving him drugs to relieve his pain. I will have to remove myself, even though last time I did that he ended up in the hospital. This is the saddest thing, as all sickness and disease are. Myself I have lost most of my ability to be happy. But I take pleasure in simple things in life, like walking my dog and being around trees in nature. I try to thank God and be grateful for what I do have. I work as hard as I can but I smoke to many cigarettes and try to have some beers to relieve my anxiety. As you can imagine, I am very busy most of the time. I don't want to give him money but he doesn't take no for an answer. My only option is to leave and sleep at a friends or in my car, and I've had to do that more than once, that's for sure.