Trying2Fly

I think it's difficult because I've dealt with my mother's childish game playing + emotional abuse my entire life, and now (in my 30's), I'm beginning to see it for what it is. And that's very difficult. It is like a loss because I don't think I ever had a "normal" mother--she was either smothering or hysterically angry--and I'm just starting to realize that my upbringing was dysfunctional. I'm also beginning to realize that I do have a right to live the life I want, regardless of how my parents feel. But it is so difficult at times. I just wish she would love me unconditionally, like parents should. She is so choosy about how she loves her children.