Hi GolfBall & Mirage - I'm so glad you've both joined us. I am living proof that it all can be turned around and you can learn to live again in a new way. After 25 yrs. on the rollercoaster I'm no longer a slave. When I found SR I was still drinking & continued to for a few months - yet every day when I came here I'd gain more strength and courage. I wasn't alone anymore, and for me that made all the difference.