Hi eyemitalian0312,
I'm sorry for what you're going through. I've been there too and I'm scared to relapse because it gets harder for me to quit each time.
You have to do whatever it takes to stop. Go the detox, stay over at a friends place, talk to your sponsor all night long, whatever it takes.. For me, I had to go to AA meetins at night so I physically could not go to the liquor store. I never keep alcohol in the house. Sometimes I won't come home until after the liquor stores close. Whatever it takes. I also don't trust myself with subtle cravings. I call my sponsor as soon as I get a craving because otherwise I'll drink and won't call until it's too late.
Please do whatever it takes for you to stop. Lots of love.