It's tough, and we can make a million excuses. I've not even started stopping yet and I can beat myself so many times for the mistakes I've made.
You know it all already. It's the curse of the alcoholic to think and think and think. No matter what anybody tells you, you've already thought it.
But you've done it once, you can do it again. And you know what to expect this time. Not much of a consolation but at least you know.
Do something special for the wife. A mixed tape maybe, something which is not worth money but means something to her. Maybe her favourite meal. Getting love back and knowing somebody cares about you is a massive boost.
I hope you make it hunny.