I'm glad you shared that, Pistol. It reminded me of the chaos we create for ourselves with our addiction. To try and untangle the mess is sometimes so defeating - but it can be done, and you're doing it.
I'm sorry you lost your dog in the fire. I was always very good at trying to drink away my emotions & pain. We have to allow ourselves to feel or we aren't living. It took me so long to learn that lesson. It's great that you're feeling good about what you accomplished. There'll be many more good days like this where you make things right in your world.