Welcome to SR advena. My deepest condolances on your friend, a sad reminder of where alchol and drugs take the majority of us. Were you using AA, NA or both before?
I can tell you right now that neither fellowship shoots thier wounded, of course I am sure you already know that. We welcome our wounded back with open arms!!!
Call your sponsor, get back at what you know works....... If we work it!!!
Hon you know what it took to stay sober and happy, you know what you stopped doing that took you back out there.
There are a great many of us that can learn from your experience, you have the ability within you to save lifes, get back to the rooms, do what you need to do for you and share where you were, where you went and why. Let folks like me know that the next go around is actually worse then the first time.
Thank you for sharing your relapse, you know you never have to go there again unless you want to.