I think one of the problems I have with 12-step programs is that meetings seem more about selling sobriety than anything else.
I have heard so many shares about "It used to be bad" and "Now it is good." I want to shout "I already know that it is better to be clean and sober---that is why I am here."
I have been told at meetings not to share about difficulties staying clean and the problems I face in recovery. (Funny, how people will always approach you after meetings to criticize but never to encourage.) It could be that people at your meetings have been told the same. There are people like you and me who would be glad to share what it is like to be in the midst of the struggle and who want to listen to other people talk about the same thing--maybe we need to start our own group where we can?