keep, that is awesome! Working thru this loss has been real hard for me. It helped me on some level appreciate why my ex was unable to actually get herself to work thru what she needed to too get where she wanted to be.
I do think at the end of the day, in the grand scheme of things, though the pain breaking thru may hit intensities higher than you are used to; once you get through it your overall level of pain will be significantly reduced!
There is that saying "anything worth having is worth working for". Nice job in tackling your issues on the quest to a happier life!
PS: When I was feeling overwhelemed with my emotions THAT is when I needed someone to talk too. They helped me recognize the root of it, and a better understanding of where it was actually coming from which made it a little easier to control and manage. Just something to think about.