Very well said. You sound a lot like me! I am convinced that alcoholism is a disease such that we are battling that addictive voice that says "go ahead, its just one drink; you can control it this time!" Then we look in the mirror and find out we are only fooling ourselves.
I know I can't drink one drop ever again and I am perfectly okay with that. In fact, I embrace it because I have been sober for almost six years and I can tell you that I am living life how it was meant to be lived. Not in a foggy, hungover state.
We should support and celebrate sobriety - Bamboozle, congratulations on your 166 days!
Dave