But I want the happiness and peace that I see on other faces in those rooms and am willing to change and take steps to get them.
Stay WILLING, it will come if you work for it, keep in mind as it says in the 10th step promises, it will come, for some quickly, for other slowly, but IT WILL COME to all who work for it!
Cath you had me choked up as I read your post, I have walked in your shoes hon, I followed the path of those before and I have found peace and serenity as well as freedom from my alcoholism and self..... all of this is granted daily contingent upon me being spiritualy fit that day. Cath let the folks (Ladies) in the rooms take you by the hand and together walk the path.