Yesterday I also realized, why this has been so hard on me... as I have moved many times, lived in other countries, etc and consider myself very flexible... and I realized my Achilles Heel is
not feeling welcome..
ex made up all these stories and in the end he made me feel totally unwelcome...
his enabler friends kind of belittled me (or i just felt that, i feel that way when people do not ask anything about me kind of taking me for granted.. kind of not treating me as an equal... not that i really tried to befriend them either as they dont have qualities i admire)
my girlfriend's sister decides she wants to live alone and tells me to leave ASAP...
and now my landlord also needs me to leave ASAP...
So I need to make myself feel welcome in this city / the world............ sometimes I really nail it!! And sometimes I am just a mess (like today)...
